First time I'm feeling that I really wanted to give up.

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Jay Chou周杰倫 - 超人不會飛

I like this song. But for some reason, I never want, or maybe never dare to like it.

Time

So... 2 weeks and 6 days more to go before I leave KL. How am I feeling? Hmm, hard to describe how I feel actually. Feeling excited but at the same time, worries. I'm worried about my family during the times I'm not in KL. My grandmother. She's getting forgetful nowadays and making us worry all the time. After I leave, she will be staying at home all the time, alone. Who can take care of her, look over her safety? Parents will only reach home by night. I know I will be away for a short period only. But still, I cant stop worrying about her safety and also my family. This is my first time staying far away from home. Sounds like homesick I know. 


And each time I'm thinking about UK, I always ask myself, 


"Can I handle my studies?" 
"Can I really do it?" 
"Will I successfully graduate from Liverpool John Moores with my other college mates?" 


What if I really fail to pass all the subjects? What can I do? A lump sum of money invested on me. I didn't want to disappoint my parents. It's only less than a month and I'll be going to UK. There's no time for me to regret but to move on. Done several assignments last few weeks, I found out that my style of doing assignment is really of low quality, low standard. I tried to work hard on it. But seems to fail. No matter how hard I tried, the results that I get is still unsatisfactory. 


I aimed to achieve a 2.1 but now it seems impossible for me. 2.2 or 3rd class perhaps. I really cant stop myself from having such a negative thoughts. My parents put hopes on me, me alone. What if I really cant even achieve a 2.2 result in the UK? All the efforts and time will be wasted and followed by disappointment. 


What can I do? I have nowhere to voice out how unhappy I am.

Melaka 2012

Here I come again! Well it's 2.18am in the midnight and I'm still awake. Thinking that since I have nothing more meaningful to do, why not trying to become a real blogger here. Haha stop dreaming. By the way, I've always hope to become a blogger who always blogs about travel and places. But I guess it's way too hard for me since it requires good language skills and must be well-experienced about places and travel thingy. How can I write, since I never even visit to Langkawi?! So, I gave up. It's good to be a normal blogger too. =)

Okay. No more wasting time. Last Saturday, I went to Melaka with a bunch of colleague and we had a great time there. It was a sunny, but not too sunny day, windy day I would say. Lucky us. We reached there around 11 or 12 noon, not too sure though. Forgive me for being so forgetful. We were so hungry so the first thing that we think of was food food and FOOD~ 

The first station that we HIT, one of the famous chicken rice ball restaurant in Melaka - Chung Wah Chicken Rice Ball, nearby Jonker Street. We waited and queued up, and it was a real long~ queue. Can you imagine that?

After eating, we thought of going to buy tarts from a tart shop - Tart Tart Bakery. But the bad news is, the shop is now CLOSED forever. Unknown reason. Unlucky.

So, no tarts but our journey continued.. Next station, Melaka Durian Cendol.

Okay so after filling our stomach with all the food and beverage, we proceed to other places of attraction in Melaka including the Portuguese half-boom-ed building, Town Hall , Menara Taming Sari and others (not too sure about the place's name.)

We played kite as well at an unknown place. A perfect place for playing kite since the wind was so strong and there's a beach for you to sit back and relax. It's really relaxing when you settle down, listening to the wave sound, enjoying the sunset.

SO, it food hunting time... We went to Nadeje Patisserie Cafe for layer cakes. Honestly, that was my first time eating layer cake. Never thought it would be that nice. The first layer cake I ate - Original Mille Crepe. Nice one.

And last but not least... Of course the famous satay celup of Melaka. We tried to go for Capitol but the long queue scared us away. So we went to another satay celup - Ban Lee Siang Restaurant. Again, we need to wait for our turn to be seated, btw, it's Saturday so what do you expect right. LOL

Conclusion, it's a real nice trip and we had a great time together at Melaka. Gonna hit Melaka town again soon!

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Speaking of Human Rights, Stop discrimination.

Hi there. It's me again. I guess it's time to update my blog since I abandoned it for quite some time. What to say here? Okay, today's topic is..... Speaking of the Human Rights and Stop discrimination. I have been reading some post on Facebook earlier just now and I found one meaningful post posted by a user. Lucky the post has a translation or else, I would have missed out reading this. This post have hit 400+ likes (including one 'like' from me) on Facebook and people who agrees start sharing around on their wall post. 

After reading this post, I realized that not everyone hates LGBT community, even though the majority in our country rejects them. At least there are still some people who are willing to stand up and voice out for these minorities. 

I agree with this post, doesn't mean I'm trying to convert or influence anyone to become a homosexual, but it's part of human rights issue that all of us need to respect and truly understand.

I totally agree with what this guy said. This is how the post like, one long post:

什么是的爱情？
What is Love? (with English Translation)

有关注我的文章的朋友都知道我一般不写爱情，但今天促使我写这篇文章的原因是因为我看到最近大马报章上脑的沸沸扬扬的“反对同性恋、双性恋、跨性别游行”。
这群边缘人被称为LGBTQI （Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer and Intersex）。
LGBTQI一直是大马人的禁忌，因为大部分的人对性别和性取向的认识不深以导致误解的发生。
一些孩子一出世就有性别缺陷；一些人被老天爷开了玩笑，灵魂和身体有着不同的性别。。。
这群边缘人勇敢面对自我的同时却被迫背负着沉重的社会包袱。
I usually don't write articles about love, but today I was motivated because I saw the anti-LGBT rally that happened a few days ago in my home country - Malaysia.
LGBTQI issues has always been a taboo in Malaysia because people's lack of understanding about these marginalized minorities.
What is LGBTQI?
LGBTQI means Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer and Intersex.
It is the umbrella term to address the members of the community as a whole.
There are children born with indeterminate gender, or sometimes with both male and female genetalia, known as the intersex.
There are people who are trapped in the opposite gender's body, where physically they are male but mentally female or vice versa.

同性恋不是“变态”，不是“选择”，更不是一种精神病。
1973年，美国精神病学权威早已经把同性恋从精神病的名单中删除。
近代科学发现性取向跟基因有关系；换言之，一个人是同性恋/异性恋/双性恋者可能是天生就决定的。
尽管这些科学报告已被公布出来，但是同性恋/双性恋者仍然面对社会的歧视，口头和肢体上的暴力攻击，甚至遭到司法不公平地制裁。
Homosexuality is NOT a choice of living a 'deviant' lifestyle and definitely NOT a mental illness.
In 1973, the American Psychiatric Association declassified homosexuality as a mental disorder.
More over, modern sciences found co-relation between homosexuality and genetic influence.
That means there is a possibility that some people are born to be gay, lesbian and bisexual.
However, homosexual people face discrimination, violent aggression and even unjust criminal prosecution by the institution merely because of their sexual orientation.

同性恋者就像你我一样是平凡人，他们的服装打扮、一举一动都与常人无异。
他们可以出生自不同国家、不同文化、不同宗教；他们可以是专业人士、公务员、军人、老师甚至是神职人员。
尽管他们没有杀人放火，但是根据马来西亚法令，同性恋者可面对罚款、鞭刑甚至坐牢2至20年与强奸犯同等的重刑！
Homosexual people are just regular like you and I, from head to toe.
They could come from different countries, different cultures, and different religious background;
They could be doctors, lawyers, teachers, soldiers and clergyperson.
Even though these homosexual people have done nothing wrong, but according to Malaysian laws, one can be fined, whipped or imprisoned for 2-20 years for being a homosexual!

许多人认为只有异性恋才是属于“健康”、“正常”的人类关系，因为只有一男一女才能够繁衍后代。
但是，如果反过来问直男直女们，请问生育是不是你们恋爱结婚的唯一目的？你会怎么回答？
加拿大籍知名喜剧演员Russell Peters曾开玩笑说过：“地球正面临人口危机，多几个同志朋友其实也无妨。”
Many deem heterosexual/straight relationship is the 'healthy', 'natural' way of life because human procreates that way.
However, is procreation the only reason why heterosexual people get into relationship?
A canadian comedian Russell Peters once joked on stage:
"We are now having a population crisis, we don't mind having a couple more gay folks!"

有人说同性恋者不是亚洲文化所以不能够被接受，这点小弟决不赞同。
同性恋绝对不是文化差异的问题，因为古今中外，从古希腊到中国古代的书籍文献都有记载着有关同性恋的存在。
很多人没有想过为什么同性恋即使在没有父母、社会的“模范”之下也会自然产生，可能这就是“天生”的定义。
我曾经接触过一些穆斯林的同性恋者，他们告诉我：“我接受我的性取向因为上帝创造的我就是这样的”。
Many argued that homosexuality cannot be accepted in Asian countries because it is not part of eastern culture.
I strongly disagree that statement because homosexuality is not a matter of eastern or western culture, because evidence of the existence of homosexuality seen throughout the history from ancient Greece to ancient China.
I have always wondered why homosexual exists even though there is no 'role-model' in the society or the family, my conclusion - because this is their nature.
I, personally, have several Muslim friends who are openly homosexual.
They all told me one simple truth:"I embrace my sexuality because God created me that way."

爱情的定义是什么？你对爱情的认知又是什么？
字典对“爱情”的解释：爱情是人与人之间的强烈的依恋、亲近、向往的情感。
为什么诗人和流行文化赞美真爱的伟大，但是同性恋者在诸多阻扰下产生那坚定不移的真爱却得不到社会的祝福？
What is the definition of love? What is your understanding about love?
The dictionary definition of the term "love" is an intense feeling of deep affection.
Poets and popular cultures are praising love should be free and equal, why can't we give homosexual couples our blessings especially when they have to overcome so many obstacles for their love?

一些人害怕接触与自己同性别的同性恋者因为他们担心这些同性恋者会“看上”他们。
身为直男的我觉得这种逻辑真的很可笑，因为我本身不会因为自己是直男所以就会喜欢上地球所有的女生。
人们因为不了解所以对同性恋者产生种种不理性的恐惧、憎恨，这些人才真正的了一种心理病，叫“同性恋恐惧症”。
Some people stop befriending with homosexual folks because they think these LGBT folks will 'fall for them'.
I find it amusing because as a straight male, I personally do not fall for every single female mammal on the planet.
There is a term called 'homophobia', which literally means irrational fear towards homosexual people.

现代世界性学权威Kinsey研究所在1948年发布一则破天荒的报告，研究结果发现全世界少于10%的人口是绝对的异性恋者。
报告还指出46%参加实验的男性对两性都产生“生理反应”，也就是说这些人之中可能是“潜在”的同性恋/双性恋者。
According to Kinsey Reports (Kinsey Institute is the world-renowned sex research institute), only less than 10% of the total population is rated as exclusive heterosexual.
In year 1948, Kinsey institute published a book titled "Sexual Behavior In the Human Male" which had shaken the world perspective about human sexuality.
The controversial studies disclosed that 46% of adult males studied admitted to reacting sexually to both sexes.

1996年8月，美国心理学机构发布文告指出，同性恋恐惧症产生的原因是因为同性恋者在无意识的情况下尝试压抑自己对同性的欲望而造成的。
研究显示，同恐症越严重的人对同性性行为的生理反应越显著。
换言之，越是恐同的人就越是证明他们内心的挣扎，以及对自己那不为人知的另一面感到不安。
More astoundingly, a study appearing in the August 1996 issue of the Journal of Abnormal Psychology published by the American Psychological Association (APA), provides new empirical evidence that homophobia is the result of repressed homosexual urges that the person is either unaware of or denies.
The study shows that homophobic men are most sexually aroused by homosexual sex-act.
The inner conflict within these homophobic people drive them to react offensively against homosexual people.
So, if you want to prove you are not LGBTQI, condemning them will only make you seem like you are insecure about your sexuality and as if you have a skeleton in your closet that you want to hide.

我们有权利不在乎他人的性取向，但是我们无权因为他们的性取向而去歧视他人。
我虽然不是LGBTQI社群的成员，但是我仍旧关心这群边缘人的处境。
小弟也不是在鼓吹大家“变成”LGBTQI，因为除非你本身就是LGBTQI，否则没有人能够改变你。
我鼓励大家勇敢做回真实的自己，并且接纳与自己不同的人。
为什么要因为别人与自己不同而去指指点点、去糟蹋以及怨恨人家呢？
We have the rights to not give a damn about other's sexual orientation, but we have no rights to discriminate against anyone based on that.
Although I am not part of the LGBTQI community, I heavily empatize with the plight of these marginalized and worse, criminalized minorities within my home country.
I am not trying to 'convert' anyone into LGBTQI, or should I say you can only be 'converted' if that's who you really are.
I am not trying to assert my ideologies on you, but I am merely trying to make people understand that we are all different, why should we judge or hate somebody just because of who they are?

我虽然不是崇尚宗教的人，但是我的人生哲学是建筑在人道主义上。
我支持人权，我相信每个人不分种族、国籍、性别和性取向，一生下来都是自由和平等的，每个人都应该拥有追求幸福的权利。
I am not a religious person, however I based my life philosophy on humanitarianism, an ethic of kindness, benevolence and sympathy extended universally and impartially to all human beings.
I support human rights, I believe everyone deserves the rights to have freedom and pursuit happiness, and all human beings should be treated fair and equal, regardless of race, nationality, gender and sexual orientation.

在南非，同性恋者已经可以正式结婚；
在马来西亚，同性恋却跟强奸犯一样被对待？
Same-sex marriage is officially recognized in South Africa;
In Malaysia, people are still stigmatizing homosexuality by treating them as rapists.

最后，看完这篇文章后我相信你不会害怕别人因为你按“赞”所以笑你是LGBTQI，而是变成一个思想更开明的人。
我们身边每天有不少LGBTQI的青年朋友因为不被社会、家人接受，但又无法坦诚面对自己所以选择自杀来解决自己内心的矛盾。
这些边缘人需要被了解，需要被接纳，所以我也吁请你分享这篇文章。谢谢。
Last but not least, please support your support to the LGBTQI community by LIKING this article. LIKING this article does not make you LGBTQI, but an enlightened human being who understand everyone is different.
A significant amount of LGBTQI teenagers commit suicide because they are not accepted by their parents, their friends and the society.
PLEASE share this article to those around you, let them understand and accept these groups of minority, you might save a life.

记住了，地球人皆是一家人！
Remember, WE ARE ALL HUMAN!


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Hello, 2012!

It's a brand new year of 2012 now.

And it is the second month of the year.

Looking back in the years that I have gone through before.
With laughter and tears.
I realized that many things had changed and keep changing.

What to say? This is life.

Life is about moving on.

Forget about the sadness in the past and start creating new memories.

Just a short post for today. =)